Armstrong's Footprint Legacy

Just attended the most enlightening lecture of the semester. It was about leadership. And he showed us this footprint at the end of the lecture:
This footprint is going to be there for centuries and millenniums. Maybe not the footprint physically, but the legacy that it had created. It is the same for the impact we have made when we were in leadership roles. We create a legacy of our own, and hope it they will have more positive effects then negative ones..

I'm STRAIGHT

Was taking a break from my books and decided to skim through photos.. As I come to the photos that I took from the last Phuket get-away, I suddenly remember one incident that I didn’t share with anyone.

I WAS BEING HARRASSED BY A GAY ON A SECLUDED BEACH.

Yes.. There is no typo error or whatever. We were brought to this little island that only took me 5 mins to walk the circumference. Was feeling sleepy and lied on a beach chair and fell asleep. After I woke, this half naked native kept following and speaking to me. I was like already apprehensive judging by the looks on his suggestive looks.

I was enjoying this view..

So I decided to walk to another side of the beach, apparently with more people. Didn’t think much about it and continued with ultimate relaxation. When I turn my head, I saw his face again.. He kept asking me to go sit down with him. Wah lau.. I really wanted to tell him that I’m straight but thought if I walk closer to him he might just grab me and drag me to this corner and… ARGGG…!!!

BAH!! To my shock, the apparently more people side of the beach are all his friends!!! WTF!! I started to sit up straight, on alert 5. My eyes glancing left and right for threats as well as my boat mates. I lasted till my boat was time to drive off.. Thank god..

My saviour boat

Well, no offence to gays, but I’m straight. =)

Nostalgic

Heater is on! It’s been quite chilly nowadays, especially when the sun is down. Makes me more comfortable to study and while sleeping.. The sound that it produce, although not as powerful and loud, but it resembles the generator in campsite..

It’s been some years when I used to be in ubin, laying safari beds side by side till they fill the whole patch. Many a times I was just sleeping beside the generator, not a problem falling asleep though. Still remember having woken up by the previous shift of night watch and they just take over my safari bed.. The small talks during the shifts made them ever enjoyable.

Those days were really tiring but was doubly fulfilling. Having able to make people tear not because of fear at the sight of me, but also tear with gratitude. Having able to touch people’s hearts.. Knowing people had gained from the experiences. I am thankful to all these people also, for being part of my experiences and learning points..

Puzzled about why am I having this long period of blog silence? Yea.. I logged in several times, and actually typed. But they all ended with the select all and “delete”.

Hmm.. Have really been seriously contemplating whether to blog again. Yup, here I am. Finally managed to convince myself that keeping all to myself may end myself in the mental institute.. Anyways.. Running away is not an option! Rough patches here and there but that doesn’t bring me down. Hmm.. Everything aside, just focus and concentrate on my studies here. Studying isn’t really my cup of tea, nevertheless, still got to pull myself through.. I want to score!!

Well, this is actually one of the few things I have control on. I can’t give it up. One of my favourite quote: “Don’t ask whether I can do it, ask whether I want to..” I am beginning to doubt it in. There are really certain things even if you want to make it happen, it just won’t, or maybe you really are pulled away from making it happen. Whichever way, it doesn’t happen. Lesson learnt. Sometimes we cannot just tie “courage” on the forehead and go all the way. When met with a stalemate, one will need to know how to manoeuvre out of it. There are always other ways isn’t it?

Having said that, how many of us can do that in all aspects? Don’t feel guilty if you didn’t raise your hands, because you are not alone. You are not alone, we all continuing to grow and learn.

Cheers!
~Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadows

Feeling terrible since last night.. Slept at 0437 to finish yet another assignment. Just before I lie on the bed, treated the toilet bowl with all my puke!! lol.. Woke up with this unknown pain.. Is it hunger? Knocks from the indonesians? Cramp? Stomachache? Don't know..

Back in Uni now, revising.. Taking a break by yelling at the blog. Hmm.. Visiting the Buddha festival later, just for the fireworks..

I'll be fine after a good sleep!! Take care all please!!

Dear Char Char:

How have you been? Hope you are enjoying much and met many many more friends. I understand the feeling.. Have you been on MIRCing much? Have you been catching up with the HK serials?

It’s been 6 years and more since you left.. Your face still very much intact in my memories. I thought I saw you yesterday, the striking resemblance.. The spectacles, the chubby face, the lips.. I still remember.. I remember the companion I had during holidays with Daddy and Mummy.. It’s been a couple of hols, I wish you were here.. I really do.. Remember the times when I was 13 , you were 11, we went around Vegas while they went on the adult show? We won 2 big trash bags of soft toys? You wanted everything, and I had to try all games to get it for you.. Significantly, that dolphin how much did we spend on it? It’s easy for you just standing by my side isn’t it? I didn’t know piggy backing you now is such luxury now.. I have to admit I didn’t like much piggy backing you piggy.. The prizes we won have depleted since, but the dolphin is still here.

Come CNY, we always go “gong xi gong xi” to Dad and Mum on the stroke of 12. One year, we even tried to celebrate by playing lion dance into their room yea? These days, I merely walk into their room where we exchanged greetings. Stayed for a moment and went back to my room.. Remember sometimes when we come back from 2nd Aunt’s place we could get closer? Probably, Hazel and Cliffton showed us some things that siblings can do? Getting along like buddies, listening to music, introducing our friends to each other? =)

Mummy misses you a lot. Dad too, though he doesn’t shows it on his face, but I know he does, extremely. Sometimes, the vibration of Mummy’s tone when we talk about you.. It just makes me squirm. They still remember what you like to eat, occasionally stating them explicitly. The explicity, implicitly implies something else.. They are both well, don’t worry. I talk to mummy almost everyday.

You know you are one of the few that really made me rush to see you? The fear I felt in the cab.. I came to share an ice cream didn’t I? Many of times, I think I’ve not been sensitive towards you. I’m sorry.. Is there a chance I can make up to it?

I’ll piggy back you?

Kor Kor

HOLA!!

Apart from the syllabus that have been breathing behind my neck, everything is pretty much calm.. The guys are planning an after-exams holiday, thinking of going on a skiing trip. I’m not so keen in going though, it’s not because of them, they are a fun and interesting bunch. It's me..

I’ve been thinking of splashing some cash and get another car. Not that my celica is not working for me, but I thought this time is a good time to like drive some cars that I will never drive back home, perhaps? Is this one way I can treat myself better? Tempting..

And I’m changing my roof too.. This is definite, to a 2-room apartment. At least there can only be another soul which can create noise. My other current 5 housemates plus their friends keep having these movies marathons, and even night before my exams papers.. I understood this when I first moved in, so not much complains.. I’ll just move out. Found an apartment already; just lack a housemate, hopefully some one “nice”?? I don’t know, there are several candidates now, see how it goes..