Released!!

Havn’t been blogging for quite some time… Here goes!!

The ultimate SAI KANG (Commissioning Parade 55/04) has finally added for me!! For the passed 3 weeks has been training as the junior ensign BUT didn’t put it to use though, thanks to my height. Well, as said in previous entries, the period is value cultivation for myself, and it is.

The passed weeks, I’ve been feeling how useless and unwanted I am. It’s not a god feeling, trust me. Down, unmotivated, totally do not understand the reasons to stay there despite the pure sitting down, role playing someone else but still get shouted at for NOTHING… Every time this happens, I can just take a deep breath, grit my hurting teeth and continue. “Da4 Zhang4 Fu1, Neng2 Qu1 Neng2 Shen1”, with this phrase running through my mind as frequent as I take a breath.

Second lesson, Professionalism, one of the RSAF core value. Though the reason for me there is the most minute thing I’ve encountered, even with toothache and fever I didn’t go report sick and probably escape a couple of days. BUT I must say it is hard, real hard to keep myself committed to it. Later I go, people say I Chao Keng…Any way, that’s not the main reason, it’s just doesn’t feel right for me to see a doc, who cares about what others think anyway… “Preparation, focus, do your best..” hahah.. Quoting from the Wing SM. You can given me 3 years of enriching but super tough and tiring training, but not 3 weeks of being nobody, unwanted… That's Clinton

Normal working hours resume soon after. Shan’t dwell into work. AFTER WORK: Still needed a few days to recover from the grueling weeks, Mich was super steady, met me for some entertaining movie with just when I felt down. Went to Sim Lim some day after work, go myself the long awaited Creative Zen Micro and a 40 gb hard disk. Though I can bring neither to work!! Haha…

Went to my 1st practical class 3 lesson!! Yeah! Finally.. The instructor was nice, though he looked fierce, but army trained personnel should have the composure. He didn’t belive I’ve not driven before!! He kept saying I drove illegally. My god.. Maybe my motoring skills are good, so I recommend LEGO for babies, kids, they are good for training motor skills. Hope to get my license soon, can’t really take the traveling time…

Dinner with Buddies

Yeah… It was a wonderful night last night!! I invited all my buddies, my core friends to my place for our favourite!! – Steamboat dinner PLUS ultra long crapping session.. Shall name them out… They are (Drum roll... Drum roll…) In order of appearance:

1837 hrs: Zhengling and Alex (the inseparable couple) – Reached earliest despite giving warning they might be late. Impressive. More or less in their own world, can always leave them alone and be entertained.

1855 hrs: Ryan – As expectable, this officer is going o be late… But already quite “heng” that he is not bugged by his friends having birthdays at every weekend… Our frequency is tuned to… the SAME and we can already like know what the other party is thinking or next action. Steady, must be the trip. Hahah.. Gay…

1902 hrs: Puimun – Comes with this quite messy hair… Haha… She’s the thesaurus!!! Whenever we have some mental block, she will confirm come out with some words in her vocab to fill the blanks.

1902 hrs: Lay Hong – Came together with Puimun, and also brought along a bottle of Chenin Blanc with them. Quite surprise to see her arriving without Jian… Thought they were the cents and dollars… Who cares… hahaha

1930 hrs: Mich – This girl… Cannot make it. Live ultra near me but is the LAST one to arrive without a good reason. Say wanted to help me with the preparation… In the end stayed home to pack her own room. What can I say…

20** hrs: Shijian – Can’t remember what time he reached… around there la.. guardsman need to go back to work after the dinner… Hmmm.. Good example for the officer corps. His men lucky to have this nice man as their PC. “GO FIND THE HIGHEST POINT AND KNOCK IT DOWN………..!!!” That’s his favourite phrase now.

2030 hrs: Eric and Jian – Officer cadets… Both missed some training due to their weakened health fever and diarrhea respectively… So booked out late because of Remedial training (RT). Really really happy to see them. It’s been some time we met. Thanks for coming guys…

Dinner was great, as usual, always… Laughter filled my living room, even my mum was entertained. Yeah… The relationships here is getting very special… layhong and Mich shoul roughly get it… But is always for the good. Hehehe…

Ya… Liverpool lost.. SHIT… Why did the DUD to it again… Is Man Utd we are losing too lor… I’m sure the next will be better… (I hope..) My mood sucked for awhile… Till another round of conversations took over… Mich and Lay Hong are anti-abortion then they keep opposing me because I thought it is a case to case basis thingy… They just think we guys have this pro-abortion thinking... Hmm… it’s a long discussion. Narrated my Taiwan trip to them with the photos while the Lye Bros, as usual sleeping already… Blah blah blah…

As said a wonderful night to erase the shit for the whole week. Another week is starting… Don’t how it is going to be…I know something is for sure, it is within my control. :D

I hate the Seniors!!!

Life now has already become so sucky with all the waste-my-time rehearsals.. NVm.. I take it.. Now, comes the people around me are becoming a problem.. These seniors of mine, going to be commissioned in another 12 days, is beginning to put up the arrogant accent and attitude in them. I will gladly help them in everyway I can even if it is not within my jobscope, but if they come up with all the ugly attitude, MY ARSE..

As observed, humans tend to really "float" when his or her status rises upwards and they tend to forget the basics. Basics of how to treat people, self discilpine, punctuality, respect, etc etc... A learning point for all of us, reflect and evaluate ourselves often and make sure we do not sink into the "ugly quicksand".

Another point observed is how a simple decision could make an impact on others. For example, in the rehearsals, when it is time for our ceremonial dress inspection, the "!@#$%^&*" can actually forgo our inspection as he had done it previously. He just wanted us to change into the uniform, never mind.. We changed. Then, he merely took a few glances on us, approximately, half a second on each one of us then asked us to change back. He has no idea we went into a room that smells like rotting flesh from the tsunami, for the uniform, with the School Sergeant Major (SSM)breathing close behind us and not to say the crowd. Not that I want to bitch about this small little occasion of just changing in and out, it's just an example of how a "hack la" decision or "just cover my ass" decision can lead to so much, in this case just some hassle, maybe next time more could be at stake... What we ask for is just some justifications to the actions...

Well... Of cause as I said in previous blog, this period is good for value cultivation. I'll just take it in stride and this blog actually serves as a good way to let out some steam... Shiok... :)

Don't Know what to name...

Hmm… As requested... Didn’t update blog because there isn’t much to update. Life now has been dull and boring…. No challenge at all. Because of some reasons, I can’t touch many of the things at work YET.. So got to just wait, while doing researches, researches, researches... Projects, projects, projects… For somebody who is pure LAZY and dreaming of promoting… Came a bit late, so bulk has gone to Wancai… Poor him, surely can feel for him.

To make it worst this coming 2 weeks I’ll be attached to Air Force School to be the junior ensign (the ULTIMATE sai kang). Drills apart, still need to act as some pilots and demonstrate how to collect awards. WASTE of TIME!!! Well, just take it as value cultivation ba… (like real…)

Come weekend, feeling moody, restless… If not for Riex asked me out for dinner, I wouldn’t have even stepped out of house. Had toothache… didn’t like eat comfortably, didn’t talk much…. Just listening to the 2 girls chattering and chattering away… Accompanied them, did some shopping with them… DEN to my favorite!! Acid bar to watch SOCCER!! Singapore won 3 to 1..!! Hurray!!! Second leg should just be a routine… Ole ole ole ole… Didn’t really bored with them though… More to come… I guess…

Some thoughts~

2004 for is coming to an end, of course goods things may have happened but I thought, it is the only the ugly ones which had really made an impression on me. Since i didn't have the mood to go out, might as well share some thoughts.

As always, I was learn from the things I watch on TV. I just finished this Hong Kong serial that really made me picked up a lot of thoughts. This show evolves around this group of doctors that are really sincerely and helpful. Hence, they are always involved in this corps (Lifeforce) that dispatches out to all over the world for medical support. Through this window, I get to see the amazing passion and sincerity people can display in helping one another. It made me realize the fragility of human in every corner of the world which greatly needs support from the more fortunate ones. Maybe bringing it closer, our family and friends which is ultra important to us. How many out there have been taking them for granted??? Well, I’m sure most have. I don’t know how I can put into words and illustrate it to you guys; surely we can all feel with the things happening around us.

Then came these killer waves. Not that I realize only now, but seeing so many people die made me feel more that life is ultra fragile. Tuning to the news, often having new updates on how the devastated the affected areas are. Comparing the “before and after” videos and pictures sure makes one’s heart shrink…

We may not be the people helping out there now but, at the very least we must appreciate what we have now, ourselves, families and friends. Many of times, it is just too late when something unfortunate happens… I Mum offered to go with me for the volunteer job this sunday!! Haha.. *touched*.

Alright… on the lighter note, wish 2005 will be a more fortunate year ahead, may these blessings reach every corners of the world.